Erase
Nothing feels the same anymore.
So small compared to the world, the planets, the sun.
Was I so caught up in my life
To notice the stars aligning above me
Like a watchful guard covering me in its wings
My tears melt into my heart.
Wishing for fate to be different.
Questions looming around;
Why can’t I fit in?
What stops me from talking to others?
Why does nobody talk to me?
Loneliness surrounds me
Like an unseen blanket.
Invisible, but still there.
No warmth in its touch,
A familiar sense of unwant that creeps whenever I think.
Who would care if I disappeared.
So small compared to others.
Hands wrapped around my knees,
Sewing how long it would take anyone
To look for me.
So small against society.
The looming hole that threatens to choke me
Stares down at me with dark evil eyes.
Can feel it slowly erasing my life.
One memory at a time.
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Claire Y. Hong (2019)